Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in tradeinthepast's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
7:16 am	I was originally not going to say anything. I figured it wasn't necessary and that everything would just get talked out and move on. That would still happen without my input, but I couldn't just not say what i had to. To begin with, "the lie." Ashley was embarrassed about her involvement. We were going to say that she had just made out with Jack. We weren't going to lie about the end result, it would just have been my doing. We weren't going to lie about how it was all three of us. Just about part of what Ashley did. Lynsey. I am sorry. I wish that you hadn't called Joe or Ashley's basement had gotten service. And I know that should not have been necessary for either of those things. But. Then stuff wouldn't have happened. Because I am sad to have lost your trust. And I do remember you bitching all the time about how no one can be drunk without hooking up, and I'm sorry that I'm on that list now. Kirsten. What I'm gonna say is more aimed at other people, but it's things you should know. Pretty much since you told Jack you liked him, various speculations have been flying. A majority of people did/do believe that the only reason you told him you liked him was because you wanted him to stay wrapped around your little finger. And I'll admit it, I thought that, too. But a lot of the people who were saying thiat are now a lot of the people right now who are supporting you and telling you you will be okay and get through this and that they're still here for you, just like they've always been. I do believe one person actually said something along the lines that they were even glad that you and Jack would be in such a bad situation right now. Although, that is hearsay, because I wasn't there when it was said. Also, a lot of people have known about the past three weeks. And although some of them have been straight up from the start being like. bad choices., a lot more people have been almost proud or at least gotten a good laugh out of it. If I may quote, "at least somebody is getting some tail." And it just drives me crazy to know that a lot of the people who are being so close with you and so good to you and so everything are the same people that last week were complaining about you and saying you didn't like Jack in the least. Jason. I have a lot to call you out on. I am really upset with you right now. I want you to know that. But I also want you to know that in the long run, it's not worth it for me to yell at you. Because you won't take it into consideration anyway. I just want you to realize that this situation is a little different from the ones I got so mad at you for. Finally. I know no one will fess up to being a person who thought Kirsten was just trying to keep Jack, but at least maybe you will recognize it in yourself and feel bad about it. Also, some of you were fine with the past three weeks but then "so offended" about Saturday. I think that's because Kirsten found out, and you could no longer say it was okay. I'm pretty sure I will get a lot of shit for this, because it's calling a lot of people out. But I didn't use names, despite what I was originally planning, because in the end it's up to all of you. I guess that's it. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
10:25 pm	excuse me while i kick chastity's ass in the department of relationship lists. 50 things girls wish guys knew... 1)You have to tell a girl how you feel about her...we make no assumptions. 2)It never hurts to work out...take your own advice. 3)Girls like sex just as much, if not more than guys. 4)Not all girls masturbate...we just don't and no we are not lying. 5)We hate porn. 6)Hmmmm...guys in Jeeps...yummmm... 7)Girls need food, water, and compliments to survive. 8)We think about you all the time. 9)Being able to make us laugh is so much more important than how much you can bench-press. 10)We may think you are gay if you wear tighty-whities on a regular basis. 11)Hold our hand. 12)No backseat drivers...NONE. 13)Girls generally don't like giving head, so you better be ready to reciprocate if and when you get it. 14)We are not your all-night restaurant. 15)Anything we say or do during that 4 days to a week each month cannot be held against us. 16)If you hold our hand while you are driving we will be thoroughly impressed...especially if it's a stick. 17)Under no circumstances will we have a threesome. 18)You look hot in hooded articles of clothing. 19)If you think for any reason that we don't like you then we probably don't. 20)Having us over while you and your friends play video games does not count as "quality time". 21)Just because we groom ourselves on a regular basis does not mean we're high maintanance. 22)Never comment on how much a girl eats...ever. 23)Keep in mind that we withold sex when we're mad at you, so you might wanna get around to apologizing... 24)You just can't force us to like sports...especially those associated with the WWF. 25)We're typically smarter than you...so get over it and stop whining when we get better grades than you. 26)If you do not own a wife-beater, stop reading this list, and go invest in one...right now. 27)The ability to play the guitar will help you get laid. 28)We're sorry, Brad Pitt just IS hot...get over it!!! 29)Walks in the rain, kisses on the forehead, and cooking dinner for us will get you everywhere. 30)Just because we're in a serious relationship doesn't mean we plan to marry you someday, so stop being so damn scared!!! 31)If you're developing such good finger skills playing video games, you better put them to good use sometimes. 32)Anything you do or say to another girl (or guy) that you wouldn't want us to know about is considered cheating. 33)If we can admit that we're wrong, you'd better be able to do the same. 34)The excuse "I can't dance" is unacceptable...we'll appreciate the simple fact that you're trying. 35)On that note, if you refuse to dance, expect us to dance with other guys...and lots of them. 36)Think before you speak...it'll make a world of difference. 37)Not all girls kiss on the first date, get over it...we're creatures of mystery. 38)Make fun of our clothes...prepare to die. 39)We don't always expect you to pay for us, but it doesn't hurt to at least offer everyone once in a while. 40)Tell us we're beautiful. 41)The "little things" in a relationship are really the biggest. 42)Foreplay isn't something we should have to ask for...it's a prerequisite. 43)Don't screw us over...especially if we have an older brother or protective guy friends...they will hunt you down and kill you. 44)If you're gonna look at other girls, at least make sure we don't see you do it. 45)Just because we're still just "hanging out" doesn't make it ok to sleep with your ex-girlfriend/ex-boyfriend, friend with benefits, etc. 46)No girl just wants to be your "friend with benefits". 47)We're sensitive too...be gentle (and we're not talking about our hearts here guys). 48)One word when it comes to smoking...quit. 49)We reserve the right to hate all of your ex-girlfriends. 50)If we happen to trip, fall, etc, while wearing the exceptionally high shoes that we love, go ahead and laugh...we will be...that is unless we hurt ourselves... so some of these i disagree with. but as a general rule. they work. today i skipped youth group to go eat olive garden with michelle. one week until weezer. one month until NC. and here's to the new triangle, my friends. Current Mood: reminiscent. Current Music: the remix to the remix to ignition (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
12:16 am	once upon a time i hate being sick. i thought i was better yesterday, but at work i almost blacked out and i had to sit down and like. i got gross and clammy. and then i called my parents to come get me and bring my car home because i was so dizzy i couldn't drive. hence, i missed day two of school. i haven't done a single piece of homework. i have a calc test friday which i am going to fail. i decided i am done with school. it is the most worthless excuse for knowledge ever. this whole year already is just fucking ridiculous. in other news, emily and i officially killed her person. but we felt bad, because he didn't know that you could kill someone through a screen, so we didn't count it. i think i am officially declaring emily smith my new favorite person. or my new old favorite person. or something. it was fun. we cried in the high school parking lot for like. an hour. always good bonding. tomorrow morning i am going to bible study i think. insert good time for alex to kill jack here. although i either might not go or i might ditch out early depending on whether or not i decide to actually do my homework. which is still questionable. after school i am going to pick up alice garrett at c-tech (weird) to take to the church for yes club cooking where we will bond (way weird). idunevenknow. hopefully i will clean my room sometime before friday. so like. tomorrow. that way i will be ungrounded (as long as i do various other little small things). i have officially given up on doing anything productive with my life. BLAH. the end. i wrote to you today everything i feel or have felt. everything honest within me. then i exed out of the e-mail. because i am too smart to let you in. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 18th, 2005
1:11 am	an update? so once upon a time week two of grounding has just ended. although, i will totally (hopefully) be ungrounded by the end of tomorrow, because my momma gave me a list of things to do to be ungrounded, and they're not that bad. way less than two more weeks worth of stuff. am way pumped. last weekend i went to wellsville, OH for my uncle's funeral which was really nice. way less crying than when he was in the hospital. it was weird to see my dad cry though. i dunno. the sweet part was the actual funeral, which was a "celebration of life" aka a big party where everyone gets drunk and smokes his cigars (which are like, way nice south american cigars. and there are a bunch leftover, so i am gonna get one for graduation, but let me know if you want a way nice cigar for graduation because i can get you one too.) um. this week has been pretty crazy. monday tuesday i was like. crazy ready to scream and kill people. and then i've calmed down a lot (although i will probably always be bitter. c'est la vie). last night was fun. the whole world came over, we plotted jack's death (amazingly, if i may say so myself), he died, matt almost died, coed sleepover part II group chilled, titanic was watched. and i joined an alliance. although one of the girls is already dead. but thats okay. today, my plans of going to NC were sadly ruined. but that's okay. i'll be going down end of october or november or sometime (good thing number one about november!). so instead. i watched america's next top model from four until midnight. with a brief interruption around 10:30 when tex and someone in a big silver pick up parked at the bottom of my driveway. i was way excited. so then, (like. thirty minutes ago) i decided to model myself up. and i am way pumped. i have like, the little black dress and the huge heels and the crazy hair and makeup. it pretty much made my life. although i am gonna go take a jacuzzi-bath so that may well be the winner. um. yea. as soon as i'm ungrounded we'll all party it up. and someone also has to help me get into choir tomorrow. because i am screwed!. just throwin that out there. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 20th, 2005
1:44 am	good good bad So despite the fact that my last entry is pretty much unbeatable, I will post again. It's been a fun day. It was cool to meet Joe after two years (I still say the only difference is that his voice got deeper) and columbus today was a big party. Lynsey left out the part where Ashley bought a penis that gets 100 times larger when put in water. That was the good part. The bad part = my last week of vacation a brain tumor was found in my uncle and he was losing mobility and like. cognitive reasoning and stuff. but he was going to go through chemo and radiation and drugs and was expected to live for another one to two years. however, two days ago they found another brain tumor that had grown since then that was even larger, and my aunt and uncle decided to not go through with treatment because it really wouldn't help anyway. and in addition to that, they decided to take him off all the medication he's on (namely steroids) which have been keeping the swelling in his brain down, which means that soon he's going to go into a permanent coma. so my dad went down to see him today and said that my uncle didn't even recognize him, and my mom and i are going down tomorrow and probably staying through sunday to say goodbye and stuff. so yea. that's my weekend fun, and now you're all up-to-date. and hopefully i'll see you all again either sunday night or sometime on monday. i love you all. I’m always anxious thinking I’m not living my life to the fullest, y’know? Taking advantage of every possibility? Just making sure that I’m not wasting one second of the little time I have. Current Mood: sad Current Music: afi sing the sorrow (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 17th, 2005
12:46 am	rub-a-dub-dub i have a new tooth. it makes me very happy. yay. the giant panda outside of the scheisty panda WILL be the new slow turtle. which we totally whipped out today in our two hour extravaganza in the caribou parking lot. tonight, despite it's low points, was super fun. and john is my new best friend. however, most importantly. i just read the link in lynsey's comment about november. and DON ON ICE was mentioned. which was the greatest thing ever. here are excerpts from a random chat i saved way a long ways ago. jasonporter16: i wonder if don has AIM itsonlydestiny61: yeah he does he asked for gariks screen name jasonporter16: its probably like.....iwishiwaspartofthegroup99443 itsonlydestiny61: no i have him on my buddy list, its ImCreepy101 emotionranaway: or ..mymommademeipromise itsonlydestiny61: imnotastoneranymoreiswear jasonporter16: sowhatiseveryonedoingthisweekend98384 itsonlydestiny61: didyouwritethatdown7234 teamfatpart2: howlongareyouguysgoingtokeepdoingthisbecauseitcouldgetannoyingafterawhile87287934857356395734 jasonporter16: fuckjackrightintheass3459 itsonlydestiny61: ialreadydid98623 teamfatpart2: pleasedo56837475934 itsonlydestiny61: sixtimes78623 jasonporter16: sixtyninetimes394039432 teamfatpart2: thats right bitches itsonlydestiny61: hey there is no group itsonlydestiny61: there's only pile Day to Daze28: once upon a time there was a duck named ralph a fuck jasonporter16: jasonporter16 has left the room. and killed himself. X6668714: now lets talk about how fat he was itsonlydestiny61: lardass X6668714: fatty jasonporter16: jasonporter 16 kicks everyone in the balls. even lynsey. jasonporter16: i want my screen name to be thepile69 lastritzke: i'm jason porter and i like cheese tarts X6668714: your mom sat on my tuffet lastritzke: i always pass out speed on omnday. lastritzke: i'm intrigued by this 'pile' concept. X6668714: yes (arm pumps between the legs) the pile jasonporter16: YESSSS jasonporter16: *lifts legs* jasonporter16: *pumps arm* itsonlydestiny61: yes!! *humps* itsonlydestiny61: i mean... itsonlydestiny61: periods are only for emphasis itsonlydestiny61: don't abuse them itsonlydestiny61: because then they dont work anymore for the emphasis emotionranaway: such as itsonlydestiny61: polygamous whore. lastritzke: jason why are you pink? jasonporter16: .... jasonporter16: what a dumb question. lastritzke: piccalo! jasonporter16: piccaNO jasonporter16: HILLARY MUFF itsonlydestiny61: everybody loves piss porn itsonlydestiny61: jason stop giving me bedroom eyes itsonlydestiny61: i might have to bang you itsonlydestiny61: actually dont stop itsonlydestiny61: keep going itsonlydestiny61: *breathes heavy* jasonporter16: be back in 1 1/2 minutes itsonlydestiny61: Where's Dildo? itsonlydestiny61: your mom gave me a good jerb last night jasonporter16: it will be a pants party jasonporter16: without the pants.... jasonporter16: this is a side of me i rarely show emotionranaway: the naked side? jasonporter16: well that too... and as lynsey just said, PJMIGOD. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 15th, 2005
2:07 am	another night another dream but always you so kirsten and caitlyn's nineties mix owns my soul. just for the record. yesterday i spent the night at jack's, because my parents suddenly became really cool about that. i just called up and told them i wanted to spend the night at jacks and they were like. okay. i am pumped. all this afternoon i tried to read my summer reading books but i kept falling asleep. seriously, i need to read out of my house. then my dad woke me up and asked me if i wanted to go down to iga because he didn't want to drive, so i dropped him off and went to park, and apparently, as he was walking in, dan was walking out. so. not gonna lie, sorta glad i wasn't noticed. but dan and matt ran into each other in the iga. so pretty much, it was just one big iga party. i dont know. then kirsten picked me up and we went to a team d/whatever laura's team was called cook-out at the kurtz's. it was fun except for like. the obnoxious-sketchiness that was/is anthony. then we went to mick's and caribou (and had a run-in with the cops) and back to caitlyn's to watch eternal sunshine which is totally the greatest movie ever (with the possible exception of titanic). everyone came back and was sort of in a mood, but at least for me, it wore off. but it was a nice change, not gonna lie. it's always good to have time to just sit and think about all that stuff. i searched out phantom stuff online, and i would rather do phantom of the opera, but i'm still pumped for phantom. it's an awesome story, and i think it will be a blast. and a battle for the two female roles. jason, can it be like november instead? Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: britney spears (i think that makes me a bad person) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 12th, 2005
1:22 am	under the promise of banishment of the evil kingdom... So once upon a time, I destroyed all evidence of previous entries in this livejournal (which was, for the record, originally made to let jason know how upset i was that we had called things off without having to tell him to his face) and have started anew. Hopefully life will be a lot better this time around. Um so yea. I got a job today working at the vet's office. I'm horribly desperate for money. I need to make 2500 dollars by spring break. I get the feeling that is rather impossible. In other news, I now am the proud owner of a sweet ass purple lighter. Senior pictures turned out mediocre-ly. I am officially the least photogenic person to ever walk the earth. I would officially like to thank jason and lynsey for being my friends tonight. I lost out for tomorrow, but you know, it's give and take. I'll go and hang out with alex and michelle some more. damn. I really have absolutely nothing to say, so I'm done. I've most likely officially joined the livejournal craze for no good reason. Endscene. Current Mood: tired Current Music: someone else's story (4 Comments |Comment on this)